I imagine if vampires were real this must be what they feel like. This ebb and flow of urgency that runs thru them undetected by others. I feel the urgency today. I feel the need to spank, bite, spit, slap. I feel the Dominant side in me raging against all that I portray today. It is like … [Tell me more…]
I literally have a million and one things I should be doing right now but I can’t. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking today and I’ve just reached this dead end question. Over the past few weeks my former and I have been “trying” (and failing miserably) to fix our “relationship” (take note readers … [Tell me more…]
I’ve been neglecting my blog. It wasn’t on purpose and believe me, this blog has become a somewhat therapeutic release that I desire. It’s just the past two weeks has been an ebb and flow of things; friends, family, life. The week before last (the week following the drunken sex with my former) I … [Tell me more…]
I woke up this morning naked, drunk, in a strange apartment and slightly sore between my legs. I know, that’s one hell of a Thursday night…but let me back up the story so I don’t come off sounding like a five-dollar hooker who was slipped some roofies. Tuesday night I had my first real kiss … [Tell me more…]
The longer I am without BDSM the more I yearn for it. I unconvincingly have tried to lie to myself and say “You don’t need this” but fuck it: I do. This is my life. This is who I am. For now anyway… Which is why I’m going to meet a new potential slave next week. … [Tell me more…]
It’s funny how when you first embark on something new and unfamiliar you find yourself trying to predict what will befall you. Sometimes, I try to think of the most absurd things happening and then try to plan ahead for that. I am a planner with things that are important to me. I try to … [Tell me more…]
The Thinking Dominant usually has some pretty interesting questions to pose. The latest ones are no different. Though I have to admit I have been avoiding answering these questions since they’ve been posted in February…I haven’t wanted to offend anyone but I think I’m ready to answer them honestly. I hope that people reading these … [Tell me more…]