Do not to panic. I tell myself this internally over and over a few times as I strain to concentrate on the television. My puppy lays just under my chin, his soft brown tresses brushing my lips. “Right Mommy?” Shit, he’s asked me something and I’ve completely missed it while inside my own head. “Mmm hmmm,” … [Tell me more…]
As many of my readers know I am involved in a polyamorous relationship. There’s me in the eye of the storm, my vanilla boyfriend, Locs, my bf turned kinky play partner, and now the newest addition of my beautiful puppy. It’s a lot to handle at times…sometimes too much to handle. When puppy came to … [Tell me more…]
The role of ‘Susie Homemaker’ has never appealed to me. I hate dishes.I loathe ironing.And window washing?! Death by watching paint dry please! But I’ve found I love vacuuming, it’s soothing. Dusting makes it easy for me to be excited by the visible progress and wiping the kitchen down creates a aura of “win” within … [Tell me more…]
I’ve written and rewritten this entry about my meeting with my puppy from overseas but nothing has felt right. Nothing has been able to convey the sheer level of connection that we experienced in his short time here. I can only describe it as serendipity. We met online by chance. We live thousands miles apart … [Tell me more…]
“What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without cumming?” “Erm, it was 8 days Mistress.” I said nervously into the phone. ‘Hahahahahaha!” She laughed. “Oh puppy, we will do better” This was one of the first questions Mistress asked me when she first took me under her care, and placed me in her 126 Day Training … [Tell me more…]
“I want to do the most disgusting fucked up shit with you,” he said with a sigh into the telephone. I squeezed my eyes tightly, gripping my own phone and tried to stop the flash of images running through my mind: Taking him over my knee and spanking him until he cried and then as … [Tell me more…]
It was a welcome change of pace: My first ever big kink event outside of a dungeon and I was surrounded by a large number of kinksters who I identified with. I’m certainly not one who prefers to be surrounded only by people who share the same skin color as me, but I do find … [Tell me more…]
After my last entry I took some time with the boy to talk about where we were going and where we had been with our kinky interactions for the past couple of years. I expected a certain level of protocol and discipline that I knew he wasn’t delivering and wasn’t entirely sure he was capable … [Tell me more…]
I’m in a BDSM slump. I’ve been in them before but they usually fix themselves before long. They’ve not lasted for a year or more, yet here I am. There was a time long ago in my early scene years where I thought I liked training submissives. I was good at it. It was a … [Tell me more…]