I literally have a million and one things I should be doing right now but I can’t.
I’ve been doing a lot of thinking today and I’ve just reached this dead end question. Over the past few weeks my former and I have been “trying” (and failing miserably) to fix our “relationship” (take note readers of all the ” ” being used here).
The problem doesn’t lie within our ability or inability to faithfully execute what needs to be done but more so in the things surrounding us.
Unfortunately we cannot control outside forces that seem to have these “MONUMENTAL” affects on us. I say that in such a way to reinforce that I do not agree that these things are too big for us to ever get over. I believe often that where there’s a will…there’s a fucking way.
But it can’t be perfect. You can’t get this overly specific, highly detailed re-enactment in your mind of the way you want things to play out and then when they don’t blow a gasket and say “Fuck it!”. Life isn’t about perfectly planned out scenarios. I believe it was John Lennon who said: “Life is what happens when you’re busy making plans.”
Yes John, life happens especially when you’re busy trying to plan shit out detail-by-detail. Now, when is everyone else going to get the memo?
…also, even when everything is planned out for an event, detail-by-detail things happen that make it turn out different the expected. Just a suggestion from the peanut gallery. How about follow your desire at any given time once the relationship is back, he submits to your wants/wishes as they vacillate to your pleasure and he gains contentment in service to you. That way no planning is required. You just need to decide at any given moment what you want. If you can't think of anything, tell him to come up with something for you.
Thanks SubHub, I am very go-with-the-flow but I have to remember sometimes that others are not =)